I love myself, I
love my parents. Naah!!! Actually, I love my parents and that's how I love
myself. Talking about myself, I would say I was a very shy person. Rather than
being a participant, I used to enjoy being an audience. I couldn’t interact
much with people. I didn’t like to be friendly with anyone. I had a strong
feeling that I am unable to adjust with people around me. I was comfortable
only being with my parents and siblings. I always hate to attend any family or social
functions and just loved being at home, my sweet home. While speaking with
people, I used to tremble and lose the balance on my words.
I was born in
Bali, Rajasthan i.e. my maternal Grandparent’s home. And I was brought up in
Manor, Maharashtra i.e. my paternal Grandparent’s home. My mummy gave me birth
in home itself rather than any hospital, I think that's the reason I always prefer to
stay at home albeit everyone wants me to go out and enjoy. You know what I feel
is It’s good to be at home. Thus, people around me usually call me “Homesick”.
Childhood memories include “Chappuchan” – my angel mummy used to call me by
this nickname, “Shemdi” – called by everyone as I always had cold and
thus runny nose, “Badbadi” - as I used to talk, talk and only talk. My
talks always seemed to be so funny that everyone eagerly used to wait for my
talks.
Injuries I went
through during my childhood are several. Once I fell down from the first floor at my home’s balcony. By God blessings and my Granny’s massage therapy, I
survived. Next injury was when one afternoon I was playing with my cousins in home,
I lost my balance and I end up burning my hand with boiled milk
vessel. The burning spots are still on my right hand. Further injury was during
rainy days, we all cousins were getting drenched in the rain upstairs on the
terrace. After we all had fun and were going downstairs, I slipped on the
stairs and was gifted with stitches on my head. One more injury on a cool night
when we all kids and uncle were doing monkey business, my head was snapped by
the side wall tile and got some more stitches. It’s a co-incidence that every
time I was injured I was at home. Well this co-incidence makes me think that am
quite lucky.
School life
started with a conundrum. My Grandparents wanted me to be in Marathi medium
school with my cousin while my mummy preferred an English medium school for me.
My papa finally came with a solution and I was sent to English medium school
along with my cousin. But even this conundrum proved to be lucky because after
a to and fro between Marathi and English, mine and my cousin’s Marathi and Hindi language
was better than our classmates. I and my cousin share very nice bond of friendship and we were always competitors in studies.
Sometimes he used to rank 1st and sometimes I.
My Grandpa feels
very proud of me as I am the reason behind his resistance to smoking. He used
to smoke and when everyone told him to stop it, he started smoking by hiding
from us. One day I caught him and while climbing the cliff at our balcony I
told him either to wave goodbye to the cigarette or her granddaughter. Within
seconds, he rushed into the balcony, took me into his arms and promised me that
he will never smoke again. Well, I consider it as my lifetime
achievement. I love you Grandpa so much.
Manor is a small
town albeit people there have huge hearts. We had a small English school which
wasn’t recognized by Govt. so we were then shifted to the Govt. recognized
private school in Palghar, a city near Manor. Migration from St. Judes School
to Twinkle Star School was nothing more than a miasma, I needed to adjust with.
The classroom was filled with more than 70 students while my previous classroom
was of hardly 8-10 students. I used to feel like I am left all alone in this
huge crowd. To cope with this huge crowd wasn’t an easy task; I had to pay a
toll for my shyness and reserved kind of nature. I used to feel like am a
character in a “Hip-Hip Hooray” serial who is been always harassed by her
classmates. But finally one day I dealt with this miasma and was then comfy
with my classmates and studies. Albeit the daily travelling for school
decreased my marks from 90’s to 50’s, I was happy for I experienced so many
things and made myself strong enough to fight all problems.
Being immature,
I always used to annoy my Neha di a lot. I always used to black mail her of
revealing her secrets to mummy and thus getting all my work done from her. I
was a bad little sis, still so much loved by her di, in spite of the all harassment caused by me. But I wasn’t that bad for a long time. Soon I
realized my di’s love for me and her importance in my life. Now, I am best
friend of my di and I feel so privileged. I am so sorry di. Love you so much.
I never had much
interest in being with friends and enjoying with them as I am homesick, but
still had some good friends in my class namely Manisha, Pooja, Priyanka, Himali, Rupali, Rumana, Saba, Sana, and Jyoti. My best friend at my old school was Pranoti;
we spent best moments together but now are not in contact with each other. I
didn’t have any friend in boys except my cousin Yogesh; he was my classmate
throughout my whole school. We share a very cute relationship of being cousins and friends too. I was quite disciplined and silence-loving girl so was never
noticed in class. Then the tenth standard came. While all others made me aware
of the crucial and difficult board examinations, my mummy, Sheefa teacher and
Kedar sir helped me a lot in dealing with my studies. Neha di and Rahul always
inspired me, they used to spend their time in making me understand the importance of studies and life and motivated me and finally I passed SSC exams with 58%.
After schooling,
I had to make choice for my further education as per my interests. But I didn’t
know what really interested me and thus was so confused. Again mummy helped
me here by taking me for walk at night and discussing about my interests.
Finally, she pushed me towards my career, only then I concluded what my interest
was in. Later on, my cousin Kitu di assisted me to pursue a diploma in Computer
Technology rather than opting for 11-12th. Papa took my admission
in PRP Polytechnic, Bhayander. Now, the bus travelling exceeded to train
travelling, thus exceeding my problems too. But by now, I had mastered in
dealing with the problems, so there wasn’t much big issues. I learnt to
interact with people and know them as I came across several different kinds of
people in bus, in train and in my college too. Only then I concluded that the
world around isn’t too bad as it seems to be, but also it’s not that good.
Everything depends on us; it’s like how we take it.
Earlier, I was
atheist, just one incident made me to believe and have faith in God, I was
pantheist then. Now I know God is great. If God gives the sadness then only he
is the one giving us happiness too. If he gives reason to cry then he even
gives us reasons to laugh. Mummy is like God to me; I cannot keep any secret
from her and can’t even lie to her. I am just an open book to her. Sometimes
there is stuff which cannot be discussed with mummy; I rush to my lovely Di and
she always helps me to deal with. Along with pantheism, I do believe in
spirituality too. And thus I always strive to keep my life always peaceful and positive.
In diploma as
there were only few girls in my class, I got chance to explore the boy category
of friends. And this category isn’t that bad as I used to think. Boys are quite
caring and polite with girls, albeit they behave weird sometimes. I got one very nice friend Nilam as my classmate who taught me many things. Along with solving my maths problems, she solved my many life problems too. I will be always grateful to her. There was fun to meet and talk to new people and get to know about their life and struggles and so I got many friends while travelling namely Pranita, Amruta, Trupti, Asmita, Vaishali, Akshata, etc. In studies I was doing well, I used to get first class grades in
results which were enough for me. Incredible result was when I scored 81.93% in
my final semester. My parents were happier than me, I felt super happy seeing their enthusiasm. That is the day I
realized that there’s no fixed range of your ability, it’s only you
who can decide the range. I, then, started dreaming my future of great career for
which my parents will feel proud.
During diploma I
got used to mobile messaging as that was the emerging time for mobile phones
and thus experienced the pros and cons of mobile. Mobile helps us pass our time well when we are boar making us able to chat with friends but it also waste our time when we are studying. Soon I got to know the importance and also side effects of Technology so I started using Technology wisely to keep proper balance in studies and entertainment. I hate being dependable on friends, neither I like any friend to
depend on me. I believe in having few friends but real friends. I don’t want to have friends just to make myself happy or content. I know how to keep myself happy, but I need friends to spread happiness and share happiness. Life
is dynamic and so are the people. We cannot be certain about anyone’s existence
in our life and that is why I keep myself detached from friends. I don’t want
to hurt any of my friends so keep little distance but I always make sure that
my every friend can count on me whenever they are in need. With family I feel safe and
secure for "in spite of your thousands mistakes or harassment towards your
family, they will still care for and love you."
Heading towards
degree after completing diploma wasn’t that difficult as it was while heading
towards diploma after SSC. I secured Mumbai University in the first allotment
of CAP rounds in SCOE, Kharghar. My hostel life then started as it wasn’t
possible to travel all the way from Manor to Kharghar. My college was good and
the hostel Lords and Melbourne was luxurious. Again I was introduced to some
more new friends in hostel and college. College friends were Jyotsna and
Nutan(my seniors in diploma college), Ankita, Priyanka, Shaista, Rucha,
Kadambari, Prianca, Deepa, Namrata, Seema, Sandesha, etc. My hostel roommates, as I was the
high scorer in changing the rooms, were Pramada, Varsha, Poonam, Abhilasha,
Vidhi and Prerna. Poonam became my best roommate and also a very nice friend. Other hostel friends were Chitra, Pooja, Himangi, Mansi,
Neha, etc. Soon, I had the best friends group for the lifetime "Ankita, Priyanka, Poonam, Nutan, Jyotsna & Shaista."
This place
Kharghar just changed me into new me. All my fear and afraidness was gone and I
was a free bird who fell in love with an independent life. I was enjoying my
perfect, simple and quite special life. Wow!! Studies weren’t that difficult
and so I had first class in all my results albeit it was enhanced with maths
k.t every semester. I never was good in mathematics since my childhood. Later
on, me with Priyanka and Ankita- my classmates, besties and hostel roommates too,
shifted in an apartment on rent and escaped ourselves from hostel issues. After few months, Poonam & Nutan too joined us in apartment.
Soon, we entered into our final year but
I entered partially as maths k.t was still on. I then had to wave goodbye to my
class as I couldn’t clear the maths. This was indeed a big and painful failure
of my life. Drown into tears, my eyes were swelled and I wasn’t in need of
anyone’s sympathy as I am of "suffer-in-alone" category. It was unexpected and
unbelievable incident to be ever happen in my life. But here too mummy
made me strong to handle this failure. Mummy hopes that a day I will excel
and her hope keeps me going. My parents never dominated me to be stubborn as
they always completed my wants before I could ask them. Such a loving and
caring parents they’re that I owe them my life. They have always shown a great
trust in me and I will never let them down.
Family trip to
Kerala healed my all sadness, this trip proved to be the best family trip
throughout my life. I was quite confused either I was lucky to enjoy my first
air travel or was unlucky to let my one year waste. Still I will assume myself
to be lucky as I got to enjoy so much with my family and other family friends,
the Jet airways, the Balaji tours, the 3stars hotels of Kerala made this trip
worth memorable. Kerala is said to be the God’s own country. Well it is
actually God’s own country, full of greenery and beaches. We got to see 5
airports as we travelled between Mumbai-Bangalore-Cochin and
Trivendrum-Chennai-Mumbai. Thus, we passed 2 states Karnataka and Tamil Nadu
along with Kerala.
Analyzing the
changes in me since nursery, I came to know how much I changed with time and
turns of life. Being a child I was very simple girl who never had any major
problems neither in her life nor in her family. I just had to deal with silly
problems like loss/damage of my belongings, being a tortoise as I was always
slow while doing my homework or having my food. I was lovingly called Deccan
Queen by Sheefa teacher, obviously for my slow speed. Mummy always accelerated
my speed and she's even doing it today. I used to be comfy only with my parents
and siblings but now I can adjust myself anywhere and be comfy with people
around me. I was so afraid of staying alone in a room even during a day, but
now I can stay all alone in an apartment even at night. Nowadays every
friend I meet, after a long time, says that I changed unbelievably in all the way.
Well, they don’t specify whether the change is good or bad but to me the change
is good.
Here came my
maths exam and I did well as I had join classes of Jafar sir (Life is so small;
Jafar sir used to teach B.Sc maths to my di in Palghar, now he taught me in
Kharghar.) I started doing to and fro between home and Kharghar as per the
convenience and simultaneously studied and planned for my career. After few
months, result came and I passed. I started utilizing the time by finding the
purpose and the goal of my life. I browsed my soul, my strength by reading some
inspiring and motivating books. I brushed up my technical knowledge and
languages, worked on my vocabulary and accent and prepared myself for aptitude
test, interviews and group discussions.
This is my life
story or stories till today. Hope to have such more stories and incidents in my
life to write about and share with you all.